alone*

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[#o1] Name: KaiLin
[#o2] D.O.B: 27th Jan 1987
[#o3] Schools: C.H.I.J Primary
Regent Sec
St Margaret Sec
Ngee Ann Poly(BIT)
[#o4] Sadistic
[#o5] Choleric
[#o6] Procrastination
[#o7] Born in a burial gown
[#08] Missing that special someone
[#09] Leave me alone

as i walk alone in the cold rain,
my mind drifted away to the past.
to what we used to be
to the secrets we used to share.
how i wish you were here with me,
sharing the umbrella
in this lonely yet cold night.
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
i miss you so much.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Hmm.. Its gettin' dusty in here, ain't it?

Finally, I've found time to blooogg. Okay okay, its not like I'm really busy.. I'm just pure LAZY. Call me a BUM. I don't care. Umm.. NoNo! Correction. I'm not a BUM. I've been working lately ;) The furst 3day temp job is at AMRO bank & the other is another 3 day temp job at OUB Centre. Both work place are located in Raffles Place. Hence, very convenient for a heavy-footed, apathetic bum like me *hees* My 1 HUGE MISTAKE: Misplaced 1 of the documents which was supposed to be courier. Was rather fortunate that I wasn't reprimanded. Joelyn, the person incharge of me is a really peitite & sweet lady. I'm having my 'lil break now. 9 - 5 jobs are monotonous & tedious. But i need the cash.. ;(

Suntec..

Watched 'Creep'. There were only 4 souls in the cinema, that is including us *haahaa* Its nice having 3/4 of the cinema to us! *LOL* In brief: Kate stumbles into the underground to catch the last tube to a fabulous party. But she falls asleep and when she wakes up the station is closed, she's alone, & emprty trains are rumbling past on the way to their sidings for the night. Narrowly escaping from being raped by a co-worker who seems to be able to walk through locked gates. Shé then discovers that there's something far nastier lurking underneath London. Something vicious, rentlentless, & determined to kill everybody it encounters for no adequately explained reason.

Gruesome, liver-shiveringly gross, shocking & pointless. The premise is fabulous.. The forgotten subterranean London, dripping tunnels & sewers & drains & ancient chambers carved out of rock by unseen hands for god knows wot unholy purpose *haahaa* 1 thing i hate.. The farking story has no storyline. Farking bastard jus pop out from nowhere, killing shits! *aahhaahaa* But i definitely enjoy the killing *gees* ;)

Went Thai Express after.. Saw Suzie's groovy, old time pal. I asked him wot does she think of her. His reply: "Like Shit" *winks* The food was so spicy that he was sweating full blast. He even said: "I think the aircon here is spoilt". *haahaas*

Shopped a 'lil while then head to Tangs. There are so many things I want to buy! $ $ $ *hrmph*

My mum admitted to the hospital. Going to visit her tmr.. Hopes she get well soon. Tata *muacks*

2:44 AM
alone* in the rain;

Monday, April 11, 2005

Boobie Grab! Anyone? Notice Mag's expression. She looks very happy that we're grabbin her *LOL*

11:32 PM
alone* in the rain;

Nono! We don't know that guy in the background! Uninvited Guest :/

11:31 PM
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'lil imp & 'lil klutz *haahaaz* only the Glam gang know wot I meant. Yeah?

11:28 PM
alone* in the rain;

Saturday, April 09, 2005

To: Him

I'm sorry ..
For the unexpected changes in me
For not turning up that day when you waited & wanted to see me badly
For walking out on you
For making life so miserable & messed-up
For destroying our sandcastle
For the bitter pills
For disappointing you when you tried so hard to hold on
For letting our relationship go

I promise..
You'll never be replaced

Come home soon..

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night & make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong & to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I'll promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (I promise you)
I'll be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

3:29 AM
alone* in the rain;

Thursday, April 07, 2005

This is wot i call a perfect nose structure *haahaas* Hope he doesn't find out ;pPp

5:39 AM
alone* in the rain;

Slit my throat with Swensen's knife :)

5:38 AM
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Miz Glams

5:37 AM
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Trash cleaners!!

5:36 AM
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Captivating pink trash bin *haahaa*

5:35 AM
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My lovely darlings *winks*

5:15 AM
alone* in the rain;

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Friday:

Oh-Town-oh ~ Bought a nice top from Forever 21 & my tennis racket *heehee* Marlene & I spotted a lovely poka dot cami at Forever 21 *urgh* The price tag is lovely too! - Hands off! Anyways, I'll be back for my dear cami.. That's when I've find a job to feed my 'lust' *hoho* Accompanied Marlene to shop for prezzie - its for her 1 & only DE***** $50+ worth of prezzie!! She's going to make lots of tiinkiwinki (& many others la.. but i'm not going to type the details here) for him. A really sweet girl. Isn't it lucky to be her man?! But we're not lucky to be her friend.. Cuz she doesn't make such things for US!! *hrmph* kiddin' :) Went to the CONDOM Shop at Lucky Plaza.. Bought a really cute one (Marlene NOT Me) for DE***** B-day prezzie. You see, she bought a really huge silvery box. Still trying to fill up the box *haahaa* Should have bought a smaller one (its cheaper too)!! Met Mag after.. Took some fotos with the cute lil pink dustbin. I'll try to upload the pics but its very blurr. Marlene looks really HOT *weeweetz* Model calibre :PpP Mag, as usual, pose-less! *heehee* Rot till 11 before we left.. Girls REUNION! *muacks* I miss you guys :pPp Lets go tanning soon.

Saturday:

Went Bugis with Nicole. Did LOADS of SHOPPING! She's my new Shopaholic PAL. Okay, she insist that I'm her bad influence. Why? Cuz I enticed her to buy 3 bottles of nail polish at 1 go, an expensive bikini (not going into details again) .. I'm NOT a bad influece!! *hrmph* Cheap BARGAINS! We should make the economy flourish! Weeweetz! Shopped till we drop. On the way home, we saw 2 cute lil boys (1 Indian & the other chinese). The chinese boy was sharing his toy with the lil Indian boy. They were so cute!! Nic agrees with me *hoho* Should have taken a pic of them. BUT his mum was sitting beside me. There was no way i could snap a pic of her baby boy.. :(

This blog is getting more boring then ever.. Argghxx! I wanna slit my wrist. Hmm.. Have a look at Nadia's blog. The gory & hot pic. I should try *d0inkx*

2:13 PM
alone* in the rain;

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Gloomy Thursday

I havent been so down since ages ago. O'right.. Not like I'm always at the top of the world. Its actually very very normal of me to feel depressed. How normal is normal? A daily routine i might say. Ketamine will be my next best friend :) *Haahaa* On the brighter side, exams are finally over. But i'm not ecstatic 'bout it - Why? Cos I'm god-damn-farking sure i'm repeating certain modules.

Went for a job interview early this afternoon & was really late. Was hogging the computer & took my own sweet time to dress. As you've might guess, it turned out to be a failure. I have to keep searching till I find one. I need $$ to feed my closet. Anyone wants to job hunt with me? *winks* .. Watched Swing Girls. Awful movie. Should have listened to Suzwuzy advice. Played pool after. But i lost most of the games. Wot a farked up day. Man, I need professional help.

Margot is abandoning me. She's leaving me to pursue her studies in Australia soon.. Too soon. I hate her for leaving me here. This filthy country. I hate MARGOT! 8;( She's my big time partner in crimes. My big time smack K customer. My big time movie buddy. Lastly, my confidant & beloved friend! *haahaa* I'm lucky to have her - Don't misunderstand. I'm no lez. Now she's leaving..

I don't wanna live anymore. I seriously don't wanna live anymore. If I had the courage, I would love to say good-bye to this world.. Unless, my mum emigrate.

"Thurday is gloomy
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coach of
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought
Of returning you
Would they be angry
If thought of joining you?"

10:05 PM
alone* in the rain;

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't always have to be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And its you when I look in the mirror
And its you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I.. That's all right
We're the same soul
I don't need.. I don't need to hear you say
That's if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And its you when I look in the mirror
And its you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can-You-Hear-Me-When-I
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone

And its you when I look in the mirror
And its you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

10:54 PM
alone* in the rain;

BCA (Business Computing Application) is finally over *cheers*

Now I've to worry about PBA (Programming Business Application - I think). I never liked this module. Why?..

The impenetrable textbook
The itty-bitty, microscopic wordings
Never ending codes
The farked up teacher. He turns me off ~ totally! ;PpP

Besides PBA, I still have tons of work to revise - Microeconomics, Principle of Accounting & worst, PBA. Can't afford to fail any. Cause if I ever do, I'll go private. Would you want to spend 5years in Poly just for a Diploma Cert? Nahz..

I just realised that there isn't any pleasantly attractive male lecturers in my faculty :( This makes school less appealing to female students including me. No wonder my grades are going downhill or rather, hanging in mid-air! *hrmph*

I'm still trying to upload songs. Can anyone teach me ya? :)

Meeting Nicole at Causeway .. Got to RUN *d0inkx*

6:15 AM
alone* in the rain;